People Confuse Me And I Confuse People

People these days take things too literal. As part of my personality I love cuddles, and touching and smiling and laughing... even if there is nothing funny. Sometimes I really Confuse people. Sometimes I come across mean, and other times I come across flirty. I kind of just wanted to clear that up. When I am flirting, unless you are an inanimate object, you will know. Whether or not you choose to realize that is up to you. When I am being mean, I will be negative and critisize which is out of character for me.
I am really loving with my close friends, and will often be seen cuddling, asking for cuddles or sleeping in their beds.

So Let's just say, that theoreticaly I have this friend. Let's call him Goose. Goose and I have known eachother for about three years now, and I think he is a really great guy. But the thing that he doesnt understand about me is that no matter how much he flirts with me, and I flirt with him, nothing will ever happen unless he approaches me directly about it. I don't care how embarassing he deems it to be, if you care for something enough, your pride won't matter any more.

Things That turn Me Off

Cowards

If you like someone, say it. But if you aren't sure, keep your mouth shut. There is no point, whether you are male or female, to dissappointing the other person. And the likely hood of the other person liking you back is high, especially if you have had actual contact with them (And no, email, skype, facebook etc does not count). If you think that something is wrong, say it. Don't just stand there and let stupid things happen, or let people get hurt. Sometimes you have to sacrifice your self image, but you can always get it back...

Bad Smelling People

I honestly can't tell you the amount of times I have thought to myself "he would be hot if he didnt smell like sweat, fart and off milk mixed in one"... It's honestly not about the looks, well not with me anyways. It makes it easier to be sexually attracted to someone if they smell good, or even just shower every day... with soap, and shampoo...

People Who Can't Appreciate The Respect I have For My Family

The amount of times guys have said that the relationship I have with my family is weird cannot be counted on two hands. It's also the biggest dickhead move someone can pull, and will ultimately make that person want to end the night quicker. If a girl respects her family, she obviously respects them for a reason, and loves them for those reasons. She's not asking you to love her family, she's just asking you to understand that she will never stop loving them.

People who Can't Compliment The People they like.

Let's just clarify, "She's a hot slut" and "I Would Tap That" Are not comments that are going to get you a girlfriend. Maybe it will get you a one night stand, or even just a hook up buddy, but one day that all going to get boring. I know it seems fun while you're young, and in my opinion, have fun while it lasts. But for Balls Sake, pick out the best things in the people around you and tell them occasionally. Last year when I was having a really rough time with my self esteem, little things like "I really admire your strength" or "You always smell good" brightened my day. And in the end, happier people means a happier life (I sound so stupid right now). 

Silly Friends

I've noticed that on Facebook people are posting photos of their friends looking silly, or just posing in a weird way. I am guilty of doing this on ocassion, however most of mine are photos taken by other people who have taken my phone from me, or of people who have in the past refused to have their picture taken...
I thought it would be really cool if I posted a few on here....

Zoe... There is so much I can say about this talented munchkin. She's funny and got such a unique outlook on life, she tried to avoid photos at a brunch for school this morning, which tended to spur myself and the others on..

This is Will... Or as I call him... Smiley. He's so funny in a weird way, which I really admire in people. He laughs at nearly everything I say, which is kind of refreashing. He's one of my brothers best friends, and constantly reminds me how much I suck at gitaur.

Brontie Clare... or as I like to call her... Bronticals. She's got such a funny personality, and loves to flaunt her striking smile, and beautiful curvesThis little babe is an aspiring actor and Singer... so watch out. She's already graced your tv screens in Australia.. I wonder what she'll do next...

This stunning Beauty is Anthea... She has been my rock throughout the last nearly two years. I honestly don't know where I would be without her. She keeps me honest, and in the strangest ways makes me proud to be  my quirky self. Although she stresses out about what she is going to do, and how she is going to get there by being at this school, i know that she will do brilliant things, and some day open herself up enough and let other people get to know her funny, down to earth self. She doesn't take me very seriously when it comes to photos, thus the face she's pulled.

My Baby Brother... he has many names but he has been the one person in my whole life who has remained consistant. We don't really fight that much, but little things like this -finding random stupid photos of him on my phone- brings a smile to my face. He's the funniest, most talented person I know, and one day he will be confident in that...

This little cutie is Janus. She is a fantastic singer, and all around good friend. Catch phrases are: "Maaaatttee!!" "Sheeet" And so on. She loves to give me this look- Sometimes it means "I love you, you're so funny" and sometimes it means "Shut the balls up and put that phone away"... I'm thinking this was the latter.

This is my lovely mother. She is my best friend... but I think at this moment in time she was telling me off for something. I'm starting to sense a trend.

This hottie is Ethan (Ethi-bear). He's the most chilled person to be with. He makes me smile without even doing anything, he's one of my best friend. When I'm having the worst days he is there for me, and when I am having the best days he laughs about it with me. I met him because my brother is his best friend, but I think since then we've kind of just grown closer. Normally he hates having his picture taken, but we were having dinner and he finally let me take one :)

Sleep Deprivation

Right now I am living on about four hours of sleep for the last three days. I've just been so hectic with school that every time I try to go to sleep I stress myself because I am not studying. That's kind of why I've decided to make a list of all the things that people do when they haven't slept enough

Mood Swings- It doesnt matter what people do, or say, by the end of the day you will probably end up crying and wanting to punch a wall. And the people that I hate, which I must admit is only a few, take it as a joke when I have a go at them because I am normally pretty calm

Falling asleep...during the day- I have decided, from experience, that it causes worry to those around you if you fall asleep 

1) in the bathroom. 

2) In class. 

3) In assembly, 

4) in the kitchen...

You stop Giving a S**t... Which probably isn't a great thing. I have found that I am more likely to have intese arguments with my teachers, head of house and matron when I am sleep deprived. What is even more facinating is that they always end because I have said something that has confused them (and my self)

You write about how tired you are, instead of sleeping/studying... Which is what I am doing right now. I guess I just find it easier knowing that this will be over in less than five minutes, but if i go to sleep, I will most likely sleep all week.

Still Letting Mommy Pick My Clothes

Fashion Problems

This weekend I have a house dinner which is actually kind of important because it is the last one that i will ever have, and basically we are on show, and I want to look really great. But the thing is, I would prefer pajamies over a dress any day which makes my judgement of clothes completely irrelevant....

I'm just going to put these pictures of me in the two dresses up and see what I can get out of it, but any help would be appreicated....

This dress is the emerge charcol cube dress. I feel really comfortable in it, but I'm not sure if it's because it's baggy or because it imitates my pj's. I really like how it looks, but then again, I like the look of trackies so another oppinion would be appreciated!

Sandra Black

Isabella Brown Boots

This is the Grace Hill Ribbon Dress, and I feel slightly less comfortable in it because 1) it shows my arms, and 2) it's very revealing in the clevage department. But I can always wear a jacket or something on top, actually I'll have to because it's winter at the moment...

Ready To Give Up

I am so tired and all I want to do is go and have a hug from my mum and dad. I can't explain what I am feeling right now, but all I want to do is escape, or as my dad likes to say "Go to the mountains to think". I know I'm past the half way mark, but I think it's getting harder to stay here because I think about how comfortable I am with being myself at home, and compare it to the bull shit here. I am so fucking sick of it, I am always true to myself but I can't stand it when people critisize who I am. I want to just go, I don't care where, I just want some excitement. Something that shows me that no matter what happens to me in this shit hole, I am loved, and it is ok to be who I am.

This is a picture of my Little Brother and Me on our way to a concert during the last summer holidays. We have always been so close, because for so long we have only had eachother because we travel around so much. But lately we haven't been as close, and that kills me as well. But I know, deep down in my heart, that where ever I am, and where ever he is, we will always be best friends...

I was sitting in a really fancy resturant and my ten year old sister turned to me with a cheeky smile and said something about how the food looked like cow manuare, which then promted my brother and I to make the "LOL FACES" That are often seen on 9gag.com

Every Year there is a Songkran festival in thailand, which is basically a water festival where the all the bad karama is gotten rid of, and acts like a new year. Mum, Dad, my little sister, brother, me and a few family friends decided to go down to the biggest street in Bangkok and spray water like everyone else. It makes me happy everytime I think about it, but sad because I know that I can never go back. It's like every time I play it back it's in slow motion, the way I ran around laughing, and trying to run away from the icy cold water which contrasted the heat and humidity of Bangkok.

My Little sister begged my brother, dad and I to take her to one of Thailands water/theme parks for her tenth birthday, so we did. We rode all the rides, no matter how scary it was, or how wet we got. For a ten year old she had more courage than I do as an almost 18 year old. There was one ride which I was sure would break, and with four loops I was not too keen. But the thing is, sitting in a cart, which smelled like vomit, with my daddy, sissy and brother was the best thing that I could have done that day. The first ride my sister asked to go on the was the double decker merry go round. Of course it wasn't the most eventful ride in the world, but watching her little face light up was enough to make my day. I miss her, and I miss watching her grow up, and having a part in it.

Disney Magic

Every time I get a bit homesick, or annoyed with how my day is going, or how it is progressing I warm up my room and put on a disney movie. I guess it really doesn't matter which one I put on, but my favorite ones are the older ones.

Mulan

There is something so soothing about the story of a female warrior sacrificing herself for the love of her family. I find that it's the way she fights for everything, and does it with such enthusiam. It's kind of inspiring. Not only is the music catchy but it also has such a deep meaning, if I've had a particularyly  bad day Christina Aguleria singing "reflection" will almost always make me cry. 

Beauty and The Beast

It's a classic story of love and adversity and has the ability to take you to the edge of your seat (or your bed in my case). It's one of those movies that makes you have sympathy towards the most unpredictable of characters, such as the beast/prince. It's the best feel good movie, but I wouldnt recomend watching the sequeals.

Pochahontas

I don't know what it is about this movie but every time I watch it I feel so privalleged to live in the day and age that I do, but I also feel movtivated to get back to nature, and give something back to nature. The obvious love plot takes you away to a place that can only be created by images and sounds. The soundtrack  is absolutely beautiful but again, probably not the best thing to watch in the middle of the day because it's likely to put you in a bad mood, depending on what kind of person you are, and what effects you.

Snow White and The Seven Dwarfs

Something about Snow White makes me greatful for my family, but it's such a cool movie with an old-ish soundtrack that you can completely emerse yourself in the plot, which is surrounded by suspense. 

Mid Term Break

I tend to keep the full extent of my personality to myself, but it really starts to shine through when I get excited for something. On Saturday I get to see my mum for the first time in three months and I can't wait, I know the break is only three days but I think that we are all feeling the need for a break here.

Today, I have decided to make a list of things that us girls in a boarding house do when we have spent too long here.

• We eat excess amounts of carbs-I know its counter productive but it's the most common thing that we do just before mid-term break, or before term break. 

• Stay Up watching old re-runs of our favorite TV Shows-The only problem with this is we then complain that we are exhausted and thus eat more carbs... and cry more.

• We swear more and declare unreasonable things-For Example "Fuck Studying... I'm going to be a prostitute" or "Maybe the fucking Maccas chicks are on to something"

• We exaggerate the great things that have previously happened last time we had a break-Problem with this is that it's often way out of proportioned and we are so excited that we sometimes forget that most of what we did was sleeping, or getting drunk. 

• Clean our rooms-It's the one time of the term that our rooms are spic and span. I don't actually know why we do it, sometimes its procrastination but I think it's just a way of reminding us that we will be home, in our own beds in such a short time.

The Stupid Things People Do

Last night I was caught out, for walking around my boarding house with only underwear on. I actually have no shame so I didn't really care what other people said about it, or what other people told me what I should do. But some people take it that step further, and I thought that it would be cool if I could find a list of things that people do that are so stupid, but at the same time kind of inspiring that they are doing this to feel like they are living. Inspirational.... sort of...

1. Streaking at a sports event...
Really puts me running around in my underwear in my own house in perspective..
Maybe it's a ploy to get some public attention, but maybe, just maybe they want to feel they are alive.

2. Bull Fighting..
I know it's a tradition in some countries, but Holy Lord, playing hide and seek is almost enough thrill for me. Some people go that extra step, and while I was watching Jackass with my little brother a couple of weeks ago he said "I'm going to do that one day"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5jovQQOOMes

3. Sky Diving.

It's all about the thrill, and I have a huge respect for people that can actually go through with it. I get scared going on escalators, so jumping out of a plane is amazing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FS6pnu8NGAQ

That's all I can think of right now, my mind is a bit frazzled, but let me know if there is something you think is so inspiring and driven by the need for thrill.

Post Secrets

For my friends 17th birthday she got a book called "Post Secret" and at first it pulled me in because it looked really quirky regarding the art work. Basically people send in secrets that they are ashamed of, or scared to tell other people and in some sort of way it frees them. As I read through the pages I realized how deep it was. On some pages I wanted to laugh, on other pages I wanted to cry but what I felt overall was that it assured me that I am not totally abnormal.
This is the web page : http://www.postsecret.com/

I have decided to make a list of 5 secrets that I have probably been keeping in for too long.

1.  Old people (as in people above 60) scare me- to the point where if I see one during the day I will have a nightmare about them

2. Every morning I say to myself "You can do it"

3. I won't be friends with someone who smells bad

4. When I want a day off school I will have a "Head ache" but when I'm actually sick I will go red, and be short tempered.  Last year I had 69 "Sick" days

5. I can't sleep when my Mom's step dad is in the same house because I'm scared to death of him.

And I know that even if something does happen, my Grandmother doesn't love me enough to keep loving me.

Favorites Meals From Around the World

Egypt: Falafel 

Italy: Meat Ravioli

Germany: Chicken Snitchel

India: Chicken Tikka Masala

Australia: Bangers and Mash

Thailand: Pad Thai

Malta: Figoli 

China: Din Tai Fung

England: Scones

Japan: Sushi