A Little Bit Of Me

Casual Non Smiling Selfie :) Maybe says something about my  insecurities

In order from the left: Ethan, Harrison (my brother) and me... On a Thai Island at sunset

App From IPhone...

My lovely brother and Beautiful mother

Duck Face and cheesy Asian smile (Jane and me)

At my birthday dinner at a pub with Jane and Meggy

Bronte and me

"Cranky Face"

Waking up the morning after my birthday party... at the beach

Bells beach in the dead of winter

The cove at Bells beach

My Feet after being in the water

Nat posing for the Phone 

Chels and Jane at Chinese Restaurant 

Bronte and I at the Chinese Restaurant

Home Time

Holidays are just around the corner in Australia, and not only am I going to be 18 for these holidays but I am going to be spending it in Thailand. Of course I'll be doing some study because it's the longest holiday that I will have, and the exams are soon. I'll also be sleeping for maybe two days solid. 

Here are some things that I am looking forward to about home:

Real Food

My mum makes the best food in the whole world. My family is from Malta, which is near Italy so we love things that are packed full of carbs (pasta, potato, bread). And then she is a champ at making Thai food, and all that other stuff. Then there are the buffets. I can't believe that the one school that I picked has the worst food available. I am over having half frozen, moldy food for meals.

My Own Bed

There is something so good about sleeping in your own bed. There is something about these beds in my boarding house that won't let me sleep. Maybe it's that I sleep where I work... or maybe it's that everything is so loud because I live with 60 girls. Just saying...

Relaxing

I can't relax at school because whenever I try, I get so worried that i should be studying, and thus I am not truly relaxing. When I go home, I can have a few hours of set study time, but then I can also just relax by the pool or in front of the TV, or even at the gym.

Going Out

Whether it be shopping or going out or night I will be doing it. There's the shops during the day and then the pubs/clubs at night.  Or going to the movies. I just want to be doing something other than what I am doing at the moment... which is nothing.

Child- 360

Just Read the Lyrics and think about it for a little bit. Sometimes you just have to stop and think.
Really Talented guy. Should listen to the song...

When I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya,

I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh…

I had a father who came from nothing

He took that and he made it something

He’d seen it all by his 21st, right

His mum and dad both left this earth, why

It was the drinking that killed his mother

He’s watching the same thing kill his brother

And he doesn’t say it much but he really loves us

And he doesn’t want the same thing to kill his sons

When he sees me with a drink in my hand

I understand now why he thinks that it’s bad

Cause he knows that it’s so evil

But he knows we’re our own people, so he lets us go

When I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

Now I know, now I know, now I know oh oh ohh…

Now I know, now I know, now I know oh oh ohh…

I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

See, I don’t know if God’s real

But if he is I can image how God feels

And there’s things I’d discuss with him

I bet he wouldn’t change much

But there’s shit he would have done different

When my grandpa passed away

I remember saying bye on his last few days

And I’m hoping there’s a heaven

I want to meet again

And I never met anybody as positive as him

Not many were as sick as him

But he didn’t let the illness kill his grin

And that’s why I went ahead and inked my skin

Cause I remember the smile when I think of him

When I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

Now I know, now I know, now I know oh oh ohh…

Now I know, now I know, now I know oh oh ohh…

I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

I didn’t know that my brother got bullied in school

If I could go back now, I wouldn’t be fooled

He probably thought mum and dad don’t fucking care

But it wasn’t even that, they were so unaware

Living in a family where money is favored

Makes us wanna say, I fuckin’ hate it

Brother though we gotta feel blessed as fuck

Just remember they only want the best for us

We got a mum that’s an angel, I’m thankful

To even have her in my life, I’m grateful

Family is anybody that close to you

See this song right here, it is overdue

For you…

When I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

Now I know, now I know, now I know oh oh ohh…

Now I know, now I know, now I know oh oh ohh…

I was just a child, I didn’t know much about ya, ooh… ooh…

Formal Dresses

I'm not even sure that I want to go to formal, but I figure that when every one of my friends and my parents demand it of me, I should probably look for a dress. Again... I have no clue what I am doing

Gypsy and The Cat

This weekend I asked my brother what some good music to listen to when you want to chill out was. He recommended the Gypsy and the Cat...
I was a bit hesitant because of their name, but I think that they have really grown on me...
They Are a Melbourne Band, and are amazing! If you don't want to download them- at least YouTube them. And They are hot.... so take that as you may :)
Here are some of their lyrics

Gypsy and The Cat

Break Away- Gypsy and the Cat

Time to be alone
I, I had a change of view
And if I held the world
Would I ever gain
If I had a dream
Will I see the light

Yesterday I saw a lady needing help
The only look was someone
He was laughing on the way
Tonight I'll be
The one to lead the way
A troubled light will be a distant memory 

Gilgamesh- Gypsy and the Cat

Searching for an endless moment
You don't have to say I'm wrong 
As I float on through this windless orchard 
Shadows favour all the dark in sight
I feel the light, it cuts my face
I'm staring at the wall 
It won't be long til we embrace I'm knocking on your wall 

Lady take me to the magic wall
And maybe we'll drift on through the world

I miss you every that I'm breathing 
We couldn't even say goodbye 
I'm dreaming that your face is smiling 
It won't be too long til I meet you there
Where have you run to, I need to know
Where will I find you, I have to go

Sight Of A Tear- Gypsy and The Cat

Eyes wide shut in another world
Sleeping tight was a lonely boy
Shifting stars on the ceiling wall
There's a night light breathing there
Reaching out to the land of the lord from the dark in my room
Screaming out for the light of the soul to be gone from the world that I'm in

You were the nightlight
Searching for sunlight here
You were the nightlight
Born at the sight of a tear

At the sight of a tear

Toss and turn sheets are sliding down
Won't awake til the light is found
Conscious mind went to say goodbye
Now this dream is floating on
Just as I turn and hide from the man I am struck by a light from the moon
Guiding me like a knight shining back to my world filled with love scented wounds

Things To Describe Your Final year Of High school

Last night I was talking with my friend Anthea- we were lying on the floor of her room, exhausted by the pure thought of doing work. She started ranting loudly about how she would describe how this year has been for her.

"It's like hitting yourself in the head against a piece of wood"

"Sometimes during assessment I get the temptation to bang my head on the desk, because I'm pretty sure that  will wake me up"

"I think I'm working hard, and getting tired from it, but then I realize that I am just sitting there, staring at my homework like an idiot"

"Don't try to be perfect... Because you will fail"

"Stay away from your laptop and TV"

"VCE is a unnecessary pain caused by the sadists of the Government" 

'It's so hard, because even when you are having scheduled relax time, you are still stressing out about what you are supposed to be doing"

My Bucket List

The movie made me cry which is to be expected because the thought of someone dying makes my eyes well up. Basically the guy makes a list of things he wants to do before he dies, after finding out he has a terminal illness.
So I have challenged myself to make a bucket list. I am not sure if it will work or not because I am the kind of person that once I make a list, I get tempted to finish it. I don't really like half doing things. Here goes.

1. Bungee Jump off Royal Gorge Suspension Bridge, USA – 1053 ft (321 m)

Probably not the smartest Idea for me because I am terrified of heights, but I think it's something that I have to do before I die. 

2. Ball Room Dance In A Fancy Dress

Dancing these days usually consists of jumping up and down on the spot with one/ both hands raised in the air. Whilst I love this idea of dancing (because I am highly uncoordinated) I have always wondered what it would be like to sway around the room in a fluffed up fabric.

3. Sleep On a traditional Egyptian Felucca over night.

I love camping but there is something so cool about these boats. Last time I was in Egypt we did a cruise down the Nile, and whilst I loved living it up on a luxurious boat, part of me wonders what it would be like to watch fall asleep under the stars on a boat floating down the Nile.

4. Give Another Person Life

Eg. Mother hood. I've always wanted kids, and I am sure that before I die I will have kids. Even if I can't have a biological child, I would love to adopt. It's a little bit early for me to be thinking about this now though.

5. Go On the Cyclone Roller Coaster Ride at Dreamworld, QLD

When I was younger My dad, Brother and I drove to Queensland from Sydney, we got to dreamworld, lined up for about an hour and before I could get on the ride I chickened out and proceeded to watch my 8 year old brother (2 years younger than me) take my place. Ever since I have held my tounge and just gone on the ride. But this is the one ride that I chickened out of, and before I die I would love the chance to redeem myself.

6. Get A Tattoo 

I know my mum said that she will be "Deeply disappointed" in me if I get a tattoo, but I am determined to get one before I die. I don't want to get an all round one like this old fart, but something small that is unique, on my wrist, neck or back. I know it comes across kind of skanky or unkept but to me it just seems cool.

7. Run A marathon for Charity 

I'm not a champ runner, but I think with a little bit of training I could get it done. I've done a couple of charity runs already since last year, but I would love to have the achievement of running one before I die.

8. Hug 10 Random People on the Street

I know it's already been done but I'm the kind of person that when I am introduced to someone, I will hug them, unless it's professional of course. I need to put a limit to it, just for myself because I know that once I start, I wont stop.